No Shit.: December 2007

Monday, December 31

2008

I'M OFF TO CHICAGO..

FOR NEW YEAR EVE CELEBRATION!

FOR year 2008

which I'm VERY VERY excited and looking forward !

~yee leng leng fatt~

NGO LEI LAAAA!

Tuesday, December 18

So this is it.
The end of a love story.
The end of a sad, but beautiful love story.
We've been expecting this day.
It's like, I will feel lucky to have another day extra.
Accepting the reality that brought us here today.
While every now and then we'll step on the optimistic side.
Holding on for the moment.
Until It's left behind.

It's over now.

Sigh, i finally have some space of my own. I actually skipped work and escaped to somewhere unknown. It's not important where it is, as long as I'm alone, away from distractions, with a lot of space. To finally do what i wanna do.

Us.

Undeniably, we want each other. We want to be together. I want to see her everyday. I want to learn from her bad habits. I wanna pick her up after school and then swim and then movie. Karaoke the next day. Like a couple.

But obviously we can't. We both know it too well. Or perhaps, it's the way we think about stuff. The way we treat reality as an obstacle that encumbers all our hopes and wishes. Well, at times we'll call each other and talk about random stuff. But most of the time, we are confused whether or not to make the call. Whether or not, the feelings for each other will fade away by eliminate the habit of calling each other.

It's kinda true. In terms of the amount of effort we put towards this relationship, it's like we're minimizing it. I never like it that way but i agreed with it, because the purpose of practicing it isn't what i wish for, but what's best for us.

Popo and taptap has one thing in common, they made me cry on the day i depart for ISU. The reason is simple, I'm afraid that things might be different the next time I'm back home. Now that I'm still wearing black as a way to respect popo,it reminds me that I have to accept the reality. To let go, of someone who ought to let go of, though it's worth holding on.

All this happened so fast. With so many other things bothering me. And bugging me. Within just 10 days. All that I'm involved, there wasn't any effort or initiative I've put in. It all just come to me. Together. Until one point that, I have no control of what's going on around me.

But whatever reason that trigger the ending of the relationship, it does not matter that much after all. I don't wanna fight back or mention about it anymore. Who's innocent or what had happened. What done is done. This time round, I did not make her happy. But there's nothing much I can do for now.

Enough said. On the bright side, I'm glad that I've learnt a lot from this relationship. There's no regrets, no unhappy stuff involved in it. It's fulfilling and happy.

I will remember this chapter of my life.

Bimbi out.

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Wednesday, December 12

Let The Spirit Free

Cremation took place on the 11th December 2pm, where relatives and friends paid their last respect.
My sister and I both had a moment of silence for popo.

My 19th birthday lunch @ Mr.Ho's

Our last Family photo, September 2007

For now, life goes on.

Finals. My 1st priority for now.

Sunday, December 9

My Deepest Condolence

to my popo who just passed away today afternoon 12pm Malaysia time.

About 4 months ago. The bimbi was back in KL. For just a duration of 3 weeks, I had so much fun. I felt so much love. Love from my family members and from tap tap. I never imagined myself spending so much time staying at home. Lunch and dinner with my family for almost everyday (during my college life @ HELP, it's a rare case for bimbi to dine at home, especially during weekdays). Even for that 4 days when tap tap was around, we did not had a chance for a private romantic dinner, because the bimbi brought her home/eat out for dinner with my family everyday. My cute grandma (popo) likes tap tap a lot. She'll observe her during the dinner, come back home n tell me stuff about her!! Popo actually told me that she don't eat a lot of rice and also she don't like char siew!! haha~

I guess i love my family a lot. I love hanging out with them a lot. My parents once asked me how am i gonna celebrate my 21st birthday, since it's one of the reason that made me travel back home. I always wanted a huge ass rock star party for my 21st. Instead, I celebrated with just my mom, dad, bro and popo.

5 days prior my flight back to the US, the family received bad news dealing with popo. I can tell from my mom's face expression as she walked down the staircase with yi 舅父 in my house. She had tear marks. Mom did not know how to let me know this, so dad told the children after supper. Popo was diagnosed from 4th stage lung cancer. Though her age prohibited her to admit any form of therapy, i feel glad to see popo still laughing and jokes around even when she's in ICU. There's no pain. no suffering. I still remember the last sight of popo couple of hours before my flight.

She did not get any better since then. It got worse about 3 weeks ago. Popo no longer can walk, bath or eat on her own. My mom then took a break from school and transformed into a full-time nurse at home. I started calling home every afternoon since then. The previous time i talked with popo, she couldn't speak much anymore.

Today afternoon 12pm Malaysia time, dad called me to let me know that popo has passed away.

Sad is the word.

"Life still goes on, but you know very well that, she'll still live in your heart forever. The things she said, the things she do."
-High Hand-

Thnx high hand, though i reli dont know how u knew about it.

Life still goes on. It's now 4pm malaysia time. I've teared enough. Felt a lot better after blogging about it. I extend my deepest sympathy to my mom, dad, 舅父s, ah yee, and all my relatives.

Rest in peace popo. My heart will always be with you. Be proud of your grandson, as much as i'm proud of you. I never let you down, and will never will.

Sunday, December 2

Malaysian Graduation Night Fall 2007

haaa... I know it's dead week.. Everything looks dead. Bimbi deserves a break after a day of homeworks and projects right..

So many pictures. Let them do the talking yo~

The Hot Bimbi

Hot Bimbi with Hot High Hand Rachel

The Engineers : 3 Industrial 1 Chemical

Linh is Gorgeous !

The poppers !

Stan and I performed a couple of dances for the night. Well, considering those creepy moves we choreographed the night before the show, it turned out fabulous. I'm glad i remember the sequences and the steps.. Bimbi just loves dancing ! Videos of our dance are up on facebook.. I'll try to edit n put it onto multiply soon.. so bimbi's mami canwatch it and have something new to praise about her son in front of her colleagues.

Game time !
2 teams with 8 msian each will suck those ping pong balls with their lips, pass it to the next person in line until it reaches the end. Fastest team WINS! And of course, the bimbi team WON ! A very nice game to play and watch. Applause to Long Kor and Sky, the new students who came out with the idea.